I thought that we'd make it because you said that we'd make it through.

i found something that i wrote the night it happened.

"I'm not quite sure what i intend to do with this letter after i write it. i know im definitely not going to send it to you. i didnt write this to make you feel sorry or bad or whatever. i just really need to get my feelings out and tell you whats going on in my head..
you really hurt me. i dont understand how you can say that you like me, but dont want to be in a relationship with me. idk. maybe someday that will happen to me and then i'll understand. or maybe not. I really thought this was going to last and you told me you thought it would last. and everything seemed to be going great, but i guess not. 
it went by too fast. i feel like im not done with you. i feel like you didnt give
me a chance to open up to you and show you the real me.  i hate that you didnt give me a chance to fall in love with you. part of me hopes that somehow you will wake up one morning and realize that you want to be with me. but another part of me just wants to move on and find someone 10x better than you. hmm i think i'll go with the second one.

oh and one more thing.. next time you like a girl, make sure you "want a relationship" before you ask her out. because thats probably one of the gayest reasons to break up with someone. and its not exactly fun to end up with a broken heart.
thanks for ruining 11.11 for me."


i think its funny how much this effected me.
11days later and im totally over him.
well maybe not totally.. but im definitely okay
and ready to move on and find my next victim.

thats all for now
dont sleep..